Sunday, February 13, 2011

Blogging Responsibly

You may (or may not) have noticed that lately my posts have been fewer and farther in between.

I just want to let you all know that I still love you, and I am still here, but I am taking a few steps back.

In the last couple of months I have just had a feeling of "meh" come over me. You know, the mood that sucks you in and makes it nearly impossible to escape. Well, that "meh" has captured me and has left me feeling completely unmotivated.

Which has left a huge pile of "things to do" stacking up higher and higher on my desk.

I think it started out as a time to stop and breathe because I "deserved" it after the rush of planning for and going to Zimbabwe. But that time to breathe just kept going, and procrastination and laziness ensued. Then, of course, there was the spit in my face. And feeling wounded on top of the "meh," that really did me in.

You see, I try to blog about things that are important, and most of the time I think I am successful. But I realized a couple weeks ago that blogging has enabled my procrastination and avoidance.

Because, really, wouldn't you rather come home and read through all the interesting things your internet friends did that day than sit and pay bills? Wouldn't you rather post pictures about what you ate for dinner than do your taxes? Wouln't you rather take an uncomitted peak into someone else's life than have those hard conversations?

So, this last week I decided to take a stand. I decided to conquer that pile of things to do. And among that pile I have found that there are some very important things I have been neglecting. Things that shouldn't even be in my "things to do" pile, because they should be priorities.

Friends that have been needing a shoulder to cry on.

Compassion kids waiting anxiously for a letter.

A group of junior high girls (soon to be high schoolers!) needing to hear and feel that they are beautiful.

Grandparents waiting by the phone.

Children in Africa waiting for...well, I'll have to tell you about that one later. My big announcement is not quite ready to be revealed :)

The thing is, people, if I blog about things that are important, but neglect the important people in my own life, I am doing more damage than good.

I have had several friends quote me to me lately (you know who you are), and it has held a mirror up to my face. Ultimately, even my most important relationship- the one with the Father- has suffered. It is time to refocus. I need to be living the message before I can continue writing it.

So, as I get my life caught up and my relationships back in order, I will be on from time to time. But, I will not be blogging as an excuse to escape something else.

This is life, people. Get away from the computer, shake off the "meh," and live it.

8 comments:

Ashley said...

Good for you, it is hard sometimes...glad you have been able to be there for those people who really need you! They are so important..thanks for your honesty!

Laura Darling said...

I read once that someone said "I don't want to be too busy writing about my life that I forget to live it." I love that, and I think what you're doing is so necessary!

2boymommy said...

I like Laura's quote! Please do tell me about Africa though... the suspense is killing me!

Rebecca said...

Thanks everyone.

I must say something I think is missing...there are many relationships I have with you all that I value too and that truly are meaninful. I am thankful for that, and I don't take all the support you have given me for granted.

Just had to say that :)

P.S. April- check your email :)

Melissa Irwin said...

:-)

Cathrine said...

I think you stole "meh" from me...find your own word, Becca.

Rebecca said...

@Melissa- :) to you too

@Cathrine- Is it scary that I knew you were going to say that? I hate to tell you, but I am pretty sure I invented that word. Although years ago someone told me they say it on the Simpsons. I don't think that counts though, cause I don't watch it. I would be more than happy to share it with you :)

KEZ said...

I, too, would like to hear more about Africa but understand that other things take precedence. Stay strong and stay faithful... We'll be waiting here when you post again! =)